The Hard Part About Storytelling
Storytelling is my jam. I've been creating stories since I was a child. The first one I remember telling was a story about The Most Embarrassed Woman (based on a holiday Barbie doll I'd received), who kept having embarrassing moments related to the fact that the back of her dress was completely see-through (Because Barbie clothing is all about cost-cutting, and inner dresses will have panels of mesh where it's hidden by the outer dress). My brain never stops coming up with ideas (even when I'm supposed to be on break). I am constantly surrounded by storytelling in the form of books, movies, technology I use to write, games, and the vast internet.
The problem is, I am unfortunately naturally lazy. It goes like this: my top tier favorite storytelling thing to do is write. But when that's too hard, I love to read. And when that's too hard I like to play video games. And when that's too hard, I will binge watch TV shows or movies. And when even that is too much work, I will scroll pinterest or reddit or youtube until I've completely used up my free time and regret sets in. It's a pyramid of effort that I unfortunately often find myself at the very bottom.
But energy is a finite resource, and like most working adults most of my energy gets used up at my workplace. Even though I have the best job and it's miles better than my previous (worst ever) job, it still takes up more energy than I want it to, leaving me with not enough energy to work on my writing. It's a constant conundrum, and trying to find energy-saving routines also costs a lot of energy.
All this to say, I really want to be writing, but I don't have the energy, and that makes me sad.